learning from negatives, from fears, from doubts and complaints
I don’t care about living boldly. I just want to live. A favorite past-time for my husband and me is to talk about what we’re going to do when we retire. I am eager for when my time is my own, to do with what I please. But when I think of actually having that … Continue reading I want to live while I’m alive
I have been going non-stop this week. Work got frantically busy with a bunch of stuff happening all at once, things are breaking or need updating all over our house, the kids have appointments, paperwork needs filled out, the swim team needs our volunteer time, and every waking minute has had something crammed into it. … Continue reading Respite
In February, I could not bear dark inks in my fountain pens. I wanted violet, spring green, and soft pink to write and draw with. I wanted coral and turquoise; I wanted bright and lively. I emptied and flushed all my pens, then refilled them with the spring colors I craved in the world. At … Continue reading What we want can change
I woke to the sound of a cat yowling this morning. This is not an unusual way for me to wake up. What was unusual is that my clock said 5:40; I usually wake at 5:10. I guess I forgot to set my alarm. No biggie. I got out of bed and did my normal … Continue reading No time for laces
Swimming laps for exercise is high maintenance. It used to be that I could swim laps before work, at 5:30am, while our daughter was at practice. Since the college swim team appropriated that early morning time slot, our daughter’s practice has moved to later in the day, and the pool is no longer open for … Continue reading Pool fancies
I got a text yesterday afternoon at 2:06 pm in our family group chat: Schools closed rest of year. It knocked the breath out of me. We had guessed this would happen, but the governor announcing it 5 minutes into his briefing made it real. Even though abstractly we figured the kids wouldn’t be going … Continue reading The kids are home through August.
Butterfly Mind 