I speak at WordCamp US in Philadelphia on December 4: in 19 days. That’s not as many days from now as I thought.
I have written my script. I have submitted my slides. I have practiced aloud at least a dozen times. But I’m still reading my words from a page — I do not yet know the talk by heart. I need notes.
I feel good about my talk when I preview my slides. I feel good about my talk when I practice aloud with my script in front of me.
But the room I’m speaking in. I saw a picture of it. There are a great many seats in there. Like, more than 300. I’m a little nervous. Maybe a lot nervous.
I think I’ll bump my rehearsals to twice a day.
I’m trying not to psych myself out by thinking about how big this event is. By thinking about how many people will be looking at me.
Instead, I’m trying to remind myself I have something valuable to contribute. Instead of freaking out, I am preparing. I stand when I rehearse, like I learned from speaking coach Luca Sartoni. I practice aloud, feeling for places where I stumble so I can tweak the wording. I record my rehearsals on audio so I can listen for redundancies. I take comfort in the the tips I learned in the Get Speaking! workshop I attended.
I know I can do this. I will be ready. I will rock this thing.
But still, that room is scary.
For the month of November, I will be participating in NaBloPoMo and plan to publish every day of the month. Usually, I will publish a 10-minute free write, initiated by a prompt from my prompt box. Minimal editing. No story. Just thoughts spilling onto the page. Follow along with the tag #NovemberDaily.